Groovy, it's October of 2023 and I'm dusting off this old website, again. I have unpublished it in the past time and again for it being too "controversial." Some of the pieces that used to be here are actually gone forever, lost in the sands of time because there were overly sensitive "folx" who couldn't deal with it despite the little 'x' in the top right corner they could click on to never have to see it again.
The points I made then are still relevant however, and I am hearing these sentiments all over the place, again. In videos, on varied news websites or in commentary and debate, I hear my words coming out of peoples mouths. Obviously, the great thinkers of our time. Kidding. Mostly.
I'm aware that this resonance isn't some, "Holy-shit! Jesus just fluttered down from heaven on wings of peanut butter and crapped on my lawn" experience. I'm aware that hearing people online that think similarly to you is pretty common, anyone who spends time online will have experienced the same, this is a little different though.
I've been saying these things since long before YouTube existed, before many of the people parroting me were even born, before the craziness that's happened since the pandemic. For so long I've just been waiting for people to "catch up." Re-publishing this time around is about waiting for them to awaken from being woke.
It doesn't just go one way either, obviously. I've read the works of many great thinkers of old and have found resonance with them in the same way, only now it's me uttering things very similar to what they were saying hundreds, even thousands of years ago. There's really nothing new out there anymore. Even ways of thinking.
Seems people have always had the knowledge, they just never turn it into wisdom by applying it to their experience in a meaningful and productive way. It's why visionaries are constantly repeating one another over the course of decades, even centuries.
Meanwhile, too many of the ones who tend to go against the grain are killed or "cancelled" only to, years later, be honored posthumously for what they said that they were killed for. Clownworld isn't much different.
For awhile, those of us awakened rather than woke were horribly outnumbered. Right now, as more and more people awaken from that wokism, we're still outnumbered but make no mistake, I can be counted in. Counted in as someone who doesn't have the time or the resources to change the world but I will MAKE the time to try and help people see that it needs changing.
I had altered some of these pieces back in 2019 and tried to re-launch the site but was met with instructions for varied ways to kill myself. Since I love life, I had to take another hiatus along with the loss of my livelihood. Most pieces, not all of them, were edited for a more "sensitive" (easily triggered) audience and/or shortened for a world that can't read anything that would take more than three minutes.
The last time I shut things down here, by the end, the whole shit-show had wound up being what I called my, "rage-writing," site, which just means it's heavy on the blah blah, light on the editing and rarely thought through. I feel like I'm going there right now in this moment. Perhaps I'm part berserker, but for writers.
I never went woke despite often being judged as "the type." It's always a gas when people take one look at me and ASSume I'm some old hippie. They don't usually understand when I say I'm more Ken Kesey and less Jerry Garcia. I use male examples since there aren't many female ones familiar enough to use as examples, and I like men, un-apologetically, shout out to men! This world couldn't function without them.
What I mean is that just like Kesey, I'm a psychonaut, have been since I was around six years old when I first started learning about Transcendental Meditation. When I got older I used entheogens. I did my time with them, I didn't open the doors to perception so much as I blew them right off the hinges. You could say I graduated from needing them as an assist.
Also, like Ken, I carry a gun. I'm the girl who, when leaving the USMC, went right to a Grateful Dead show. There are more reasons for my unique perspective on the world than I could possibly ever write about, and I don't have to. Pay attention and you'll figure it out on your own if you can.
Finally, I'm just going to own it, own my own awesomeness. This is a good time in culture to do so and I deserve it just as much as all these 20-somethings who are convinced they're "old." I used to think I'd never be as interesting as them until I realized I am just by virtue of the fact that I'm not making any of this shit up and I go outside.
I'm aware that this resonance isn't some, "Holy-shit! Jesus just fluttered down from heaven on wings of peanut butter and crapped on my lawn" experience. I'm aware that hearing people online that think similarly to you is pretty common, anyone who spends time online will have experienced the same, this is a little different though.
I've been saying these things since long before YouTube existed, before many of the people parroting me were even born, before the craziness that's happened since the pandemic. For so long I've just been waiting for people to "catch up." Re-publishing this time around is about waiting for them to awaken from being woke.
It doesn't just go one way either, obviously. I've read the works of many great thinkers of old and have found resonance with them in the same way, only now it's me uttering things very similar to what they were saying hundreds, even thousands of years ago. There's really nothing new out there anymore. Even ways of thinking.
Seems people have always had the knowledge, they just never turn it into wisdom by applying it to their experience in a meaningful and productive way. It's why visionaries are constantly repeating one another over the course of decades, even centuries.
Meanwhile, too many of the ones who tend to go against the grain are killed or "cancelled" only to, years later, be honored posthumously for what they said that they were killed for. Clownworld isn't much different.
For awhile, those of us awakened rather than woke were horribly outnumbered. Right now, as more and more people awaken from that wokism, we're still outnumbered but make no mistake, I can be counted in. Counted in as someone who doesn't have the time or the resources to change the world but I will MAKE the time to try and help people see that it needs changing.
I had altered some of these pieces back in 2019 and tried to re-launch the site but was met with instructions for varied ways to kill myself. Since I love life, I had to take another hiatus along with the loss of my livelihood. Most pieces, not all of them, were edited for a more "sensitive" (easily triggered) audience and/or shortened for a world that can't read anything that would take more than three minutes.
The last time I shut things down here, by the end, the whole shit-show had wound up being what I called my, "rage-writing," site, which just means it's heavy on the blah blah, light on the editing and rarely thought through. I feel like I'm going there right now in this moment. Perhaps I'm part berserker, but for writers.
I never went woke despite often being judged as "the type." It's always a gas when people take one look at me and ASSume I'm some old hippie. They don't usually understand when I say I'm more Ken Kesey and less Jerry Garcia. I use male examples since there aren't many female ones familiar enough to use as examples, and I like men, un-apologetically, shout out to men! This world couldn't function without them.
What I mean is that just like Kesey, I'm a psychonaut, have been since I was around six years old when I first started learning about Transcendental Meditation. When I got older I used entheogens. I did my time with them, I didn't open the doors to perception so much as I blew them right off the hinges. You could say I graduated from needing them as an assist.
Also, like Ken, I carry a gun. I'm the girl who, when leaving the USMC, went right to a Grateful Dead show. There are more reasons for my unique perspective on the world than I could possibly ever write about, and I don't have to. Pay attention and you'll figure it out on your own if you can.
Finally, I'm just going to own it, own my own awesomeness. This is a good time in culture to do so and I deserve it just as much as all these 20-somethings who are convinced they're "old." I used to think I'd never be as interesting as them until I realized I am just by virtue of the fact that I'm not making any of this shit up and I go outside.
I'm also taking the gag off the activist in me, SHE is raising her head from a bit of a nap. While I have no idea in what capacity I'm planning on using this site other than to put my words back out into the world, I also plan on jumping back into a bit of activism and the two paths just might cross.
Women, REAL women, are under attack. Straight people in general are under attack. We're in a world where if you aren't sexually deviant you're a "phobiac" (If I want to compete with [insert infinity pronoun BS here] I have to make up words.) And of course you're also a bigot and all kinds of other nonsense, made up or otherwise.
Transies, you get an entire month to celebrate how allegedly "proud" you are to be trans while the veterans who fought for your right to do so only get one day and spend it getting crapped on by the likes of you lot.
Meanwhile, you're not proud enough to even call yourselves "trans." You scream yourself hoarse to say, "TRANS LIVES MATTER!!!" but you're too ashamed to proudly say, "I'm a transwoman." Instead, you want to call yourself a woman, which is what I am, and you are not, and you never will be.
We're all meant to bend over, grab our ankles and accept all trans people despite the fact that most of them aren't technically real trans people. We've made more accommodation for them than any other group in history and yet only women are being asked to give up their spaces and give up their rights and give up their freedoms. The saddest fact is that transies line up to take the title "woman" from us but can't even define what a woman is anymore, well I can.
So, I'm not just coming back, I'm coming back full throttle to fight for WOMEN'S RIGHTS. And while this site isn't dedicated just to that, I have a feeling it'll start here or here. Maybe both. I don't have the time to comb this site quick to clean it up or take out some of the stuff that's over 20 years old etc. I'm going to do that as I go along. The first step is to hit publish and that is what I'm going to do. It's a start.
So I'm re-booting this website, again, since much of what I hear on the web is all too familiar and that makes it fun for me. Also, because back in the day, I put a lot of work and time into this site. This site is unseen enough that I don't feel the need to be concerned about what I post here, so strap in, no telling WHAT is gonna come out of this REAL WOMAN'S mouth.
Women, REAL women, are under attack. Straight people in general are under attack. We're in a world where if you aren't sexually deviant you're a "phobiac" (If I want to compete with [insert infinity pronoun BS here] I have to make up words.) And of course you're also a bigot and all kinds of other nonsense, made up or otherwise.
Transies, you get an entire month to celebrate how allegedly "proud" you are to be trans while the veterans who fought for your right to do so only get one day and spend it getting crapped on by the likes of you lot.
Meanwhile, you're not proud enough to even call yourselves "trans." You scream yourself hoarse to say, "TRANS LIVES MATTER!!!" but you're too ashamed to proudly say, "I'm a transwoman." Instead, you want to call yourself a woman, which is what I am, and you are not, and you never will be.
We're all meant to bend over, grab our ankles and accept all trans people despite the fact that most of them aren't technically real trans people. We've made more accommodation for them than any other group in history and yet only women are being asked to give up their spaces and give up their rights and give up their freedoms. The saddest fact is that transies line up to take the title "woman" from us but can't even define what a woman is anymore, well I can.
So, I'm not just coming back, I'm coming back full throttle to fight for WOMEN'S RIGHTS. And while this site isn't dedicated just to that, I have a feeling it'll start here or here. Maybe both. I don't have the time to comb this site quick to clean it up or take out some of the stuff that's over 20 years old etc. I'm going to do that as I go along. The first step is to hit publish and that is what I'm going to do. It's a start.
So I'm re-booting this website, again, since much of what I hear on the web is all too familiar and that makes it fun for me. Also, because back in the day, I put a lot of work and time into this site. This site is unseen enough that I don't feel the need to be concerned about what I post here, so strap in, no telling WHAT is gonna come out of this REAL WOMAN'S mouth.